Unexpected to hear

What a great day at the bar! I was happy so much then I found out that my best freind(H) secretly in love with me. I was shock and it is unbelievable.

How could this be? Kanal, one of the best friend told me the whole story about H. H lied to H's Friends that I am H Boyfriend but we are not open.

H told everyone that we are secretly in love but I can flirt around with anyone and H could do as well. What ashame! H lies to much that I couldn't believe how H ruined my life.

The reason why I broke up with SK because of H as well. I can't believe what just happened now. Why should I give up with Sk since I love Sk so much? That's because of my best friend told me to and I am really crazy H.

Now I don't know whether I should hate H or not. Come to think of how fun we were before. I called it a breakeven. I won't tell H that I know about the story H lies but I won't come closer to H again.

I felt sorry to my friend that I count H as my bestfriend and H count me in a different way. H used all the tricks to get me out from the person that I love. I realized it as well but I never thought about it.

But now it is clear. Everyone looks at me like I'm a bad person and I am a promiscupus guy and I don't have love in my heart. I can't change the past or whatever, but it's over now. Since I know about it. H is no longer in my bestfriend list because bestfriend never ruined other life.

Thank you for bring me fun and be there when I am upset but now you took what you gave it in just a second.

Chhin 18/12/2010

Thank you SK (Angel)

First of all, I want to thanks to Sk(Angel) to teach me what I would never learnt from other. I will try to balance my heart and my brain so that I would not hurt anyone or get hurt from anyone.

I want to say I love Angel so much eventhough I was not able to walk into Angel life.

I know that my past was not great or you can call it worst but I know that nothing I could change my past. I hope that I could change my future in a better past.

My brain agreed to be Angel's friend but my heart disagreed with that.

I wish you could be my first love and I could be your last but I know it's not gonna happen eventhough I pray to God that I don't believe in every nights.

There's nothing I wouldn't do to make Angel feel my love, maybe I am harsh and hungry for your love that the stupidity come to into my mind when I am with you.

I am sorry to make you feel upset but you don't have to explain why you can't accept me to be in you life because I know that the reason would not change the fact that you don't love me.

I am not crying but my heart is crying very loud. If I am crying, I wish God could bring me a heavy rain so that no one could ever know how hard I am crying.

I don't know what will happen tomorrow and in the future but now I just want Angel to know that I love Angel so much and I know you still don't understand how I feel about you.

Becoming your friend would be so much painful for me because everytime when I look into your eyes I see how happy you are without me.. and I lie and say I'm happy for you.

Isn't it amzing how a person who was once just a stranger, suddenly meant the world to me. By that I meant the stranger was you Angel.

I am not choosing to be a victim but I'm choosing to learn a lesson . Thank you for giving a chance for having a date with you!!! It starts so great like heaven, but it ends so painful...

Becoming your friend is the only choice that I could stay near you! I am happy for that because I could watch the person I love is happy.

Chhin 16/12/2010 1.58 AM

Allegic

Very very bad day..... Wake up in the afternoon and go to work ! And in the middle of my work I got allegic with sth all over my body... Fuck that..

New Day

Dear My Kuch,

It's been amazing recently. Finally I have found what is called a value in my life. It is hard to imagine I found it when I never thought about it. Next week I will start my singing lesson, I know that my voice is bad but by improving its it would become better. Home Sick now, miss everyone in Cambodia. You know what I have been through alot of thing in my life I can handle everything, but the most difficult thing is to try to forget who I wanna be....

Good night!
Love Chhin

Good Day oh no Wonderful Day

What an awesome day! I got a call from Oaks Hotels & Resorts this morning that I got a job. I was wonderful to hear the voice that your application was successful and yet the school just sent me back my overpaid money also. I should call it a wonderful day haha so awesome. Now I'm still staying at home smiling and thinking what will I face next in my first employment in Sydney. Haha Now I'm staying at home waiting for my best friend finising her mid-term exam so we could hang out together tonight. I'm no longer a job hunter but a employer now. However, still yet someone who always talk and chat with me before exams day. I wish that person could come here and be with me but everything happens for reason and now I guess we are like siling now haha. After finishing hunting a job, I think now it's time to hunt a lover now since I haven't been having *** for almost 2 months haha funny but it's true...Good day my blog ...

Preparation for Interview

Haven't receive a call back from Courtyard by Marriott yet, however I just got another call for an interview with Oak hotel & resort tomorrow. Hope I got this job! Good night

12:34 A.M again!

Dear 12.30 am,

I just don't understand we meet each other very often. No matter the day before exams or whatever. I am so pissed off right now, don't know what to do or anything... Wake up in the morning just waiting for another day so tired of that. SOS, change me please...

Another Lonely Day!

What a lonely day! So complicated.. Can't blame it cus this is how human being are, what a life? Great news that my exam results came out very well, but still waiting for the response from the hotel. Now I'm still sitting alone in the living room, thinking what's gonna happen next if this lifestyle doesn't change. Maybe I should find someone or partner to clear this loneliness evening. One year passed by so fast but hope the time flies faster and quicker so I could go back and form my gang group hahaa ....... Cheers!

The First Day

Starting to create the blog make it easy to write something on my mind without telling anyone. Should not describe how horrible or good I am because I know that the person who likes doesn't need it and the person who doesn't like me won't believe. Hate to talk about changing cus no one believe, tons of people laugh at me when I told them I would change so let wait and see.... Too much to write on the first start so should wait for the next....Good Luck!