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It's been a greatest and abit weird Chinese New Year of all time.

During a week in Cambodia. I have done something that I thought I could and would never have a courage to do!

On the 29th Jan 2011. It's one of the biggest fight I ever had with mom.

You know it's all about the arrangement married stuff. Come on it's 2011 and yet arrange married!

What the hell!

Yeah I told her that I don't wanna get married and something coming out of my mouth that I would never ever thought that I have a courage to say it!

My mom and I don't even talk for a day after I am coming out to her. Oh dear, I was really afraid of her eyes by then!

On the 30th! It was at srey oun ( my relative) wedding my mom barely talked to me and I was like oh I'm so dead to her.

But back then my half brother (Heng) talked to my mom about my personal life and help me to persuade my mom about my choice.

At least I got a brother who is supportive about it. Oh yeah great great brother...

At wedding my mom was so upset but at least i could see her smile by then...

After awhile we talked like nothing had happens but sometimes we talked like it happened.

My brother told me to give her sometimes to understand and yeah I did!!


Now Back To Bar Story!

During my stay in Cambodia I help out my aunt (Em) and my sister (Mao) to set up her bar!

Designing, Fixing, Managing and more!

I also taught them the service management and more!

One word from my aunt that make me so happy and suprise! You wanna what?

She told me that " Chhin, I told you are chilish and playful. But you have got a great knowledge deep inside of you and you should not hide from anybody". I was so amaze with her compliment. What a wonderful aunt!

Back to Love Story

Once again I went to Sk shop to bought the clothes but it was not my intention. It's just th excuse to meet up with SK.

Sk was not at the shop but Sk called me to meet up at the gloria jean!

I was so happy to get the invitation!

I have found out long a long and now SK is in the relationship with friend!

Yeah, Honestly I am so jealous of him but on the otherside I am happy to see Sk's Happy.

I am happy with all SK's decision.

Someone asked me do I still love SK? My answer is Yes but in the different way now cus I already accept the truth we are not meant to be.

Sometimes I think SK deserve more than a Pass, probably Distinction but I am still happy with Sk's Choice.

Look on the bright I failed in the love life but I gained one friend or probably best friend.

Oh no not one but two ! Kuy as well... Kuy is such a great friend, He might be my future best friend too.... Good Man!

Oh no forgot about Panda! I made alot of friends actually. This is the lesson of life and you might face something you could not expected it but sometimes you have to accept it!

There is something I learnt during Chinese New Year..

1. The value of life! Parents will always love you no matter who you are or what you've done so show some respect to them.

2. Never loose the opportunity to give a sunshine to a day of a person who need a sunlight! Sometimes you migth not know but your words don't cost you anything but sometimes words could encourage people to learn to do stuff that they dream too.

3. Accept it! Accept what wasn't meant to be and be happy with that. When you love one so much you are happy when you see them happy!

What a wonderful world! They always the negative and positive side of the story so don't be upset and smile cus it happens!

Be strong Chhin! This is just the beginning life.. Soon the right one will come !!! Good Night

Funny but Weird

Today I just call to my best friend Hak Seng due to the car accident he posted on facebook. So funny to me, he got drunk and the car wheel explode to he crash the motorbike and the trees.

The accident cause him around $2000, I felt so terrible for the people who rode the motorbike since they're both got into a heavy accident. :( so sad..

I think I was worried about was my little brother was in the car too.

I really hate when he is young and wanted to become like me.

Now let's talk about me!!! :D

I felt so good now, the fever and flu has gone away. :D

However, my voice hasn't back to normal yet.

I sing like a dying horse now, especially when I sing Adele song hahaha

Right now I am with Pla, smoking and gossiping around ahhah so fun..

Need to find a partner now so fucking boring and lonely... Maybe study too much

Oh another thing, Good night!

22/01/2011 9.23 pm

Sick and Fun

Recently, I have been so sick. Sometimes I could even speak or open my eyes.

I have never been this kind of sick for a very long time.

Cough, Fever, Cold, etc come in a package and sometimes I felt like I was almost dead.

Even I wake up every morning. I always feel try to tell myself that today is a good day and positive.

It's so funny, today I met up with my old friend Frances and she's been looking at my blog at the time.

She told me to update is often hahaha so funny but I really love her.

She was asking me who is SK and she was shocked when I told her.

Recently I have made alot of friends in my class, so sad not many smoker at this term and the class is so small.

There is alot of assignment, group report and tons of thing that I need to do after chinese new year. feel so shit hehehe

Don't know what to say now haha... good night!

SOS (Someone helps me)

On the 5th was so awesome. I could possibly consider it as my lucky day ever. You won't believe what was happen on the 5th. Having fun, cheering, smiling and everything before I left to Singapore.

On the 4th, I got so drunk and get hi hahaha... My cousins from Newzealand were a very good drinker.. They didn't get drunk.. What a KIWI! I'm gonna miss them so much.. Panyia and Kompheak... My brother's friend Malin was super drunk on at night. I have to carry him home hahaha......

On the 6th, I mean yesterday woke up around 10 A.M in the morning feel so dizzy... I go to the college to pay my school fee and it's end up they asked me to do the blood testing for HIV. What the fuck! I am so afraid of it...

Anyway I went to the Kon Im Pagoda to pray and get the lucky paper hahaa nice days!

Talking all night with my dearest friend P Pla is awesome, soon I will go to sleep..

Night!

07/01/2011 2.03am

Fuck the night!

Can't believe I slept till 11.30 pm this night!

I could I possibly sleep back when I woke up at this time.

What a fuck night, now I am drinking alone waiting for the day to go to Singapore.

So fucking tired of this boring life. Now I should fine something to do to forget this fucking boring life.

My life is so damn shit now, drinking and smoking every nights.. What a waste!!!!

Drunk now, Don't know what to do!!!

Should become totally gay now, straight life isn't fun anymore..

Girl is so boring, yet guy is so fun...

Finding a boyfriend instead of girlfriend is what I suppose to do..

Fucking drunk now, saying what I never meant to say...

One bottle alone make me drunk, what a white wine...

Leaving Cambodia soon, leave this stresslife....

Gonna love being alone....

Fucking this night, so stupid.... What always thinking about SK when Sk never ever think about me..

Now should forget Sk and find someone to replace... hahaha

Could anybody gives me a call now, I am fucking boring...

Fucking drunk alone isn't fun now.......... What should I do now???

Ha, back to sleep maybe ,,,,,,,,,,,

Kuch! I miss you too honey!!!

03/01/2010 ha....P.S Happy birthday Boy Boy ( My nephew hahaha)

Unexpected to hear

What a great day at the bar! I was happy so much then I found out that my best freind(H) secretly in love with me. I was shock and it is unbelievable.

How could this be? Kanal, one of the best friend told me the whole story about H. H lied to H's Friends that I am H Boyfriend but we are not open.

H told everyone that we are secretly in love but I can flirt around with anyone and H could do as well. What ashame! H lies to much that I couldn't believe how H ruined my life.

The reason why I broke up with SK because of H as well. I can't believe what just happened now. Why should I give up with Sk since I love Sk so much? That's because of my best friend told me to and I am really crazy H.

Now I don't know whether I should hate H or not. Come to think of how fun we were before. I called it a breakeven. I won't tell H that I know about the story H lies but I won't come closer to H again.

I felt sorry to my friend that I count H as my bestfriend and H count me in a different way. H used all the tricks to get me out from the person that I love. I realized it as well but I never thought about it.

But now it is clear. Everyone looks at me like I'm a bad person and I am a promiscupus guy and I don't have love in my heart. I can't change the past or whatever, but it's over now. Since I know about it. H is no longer in my bestfriend list because bestfriend never ruined other life.

Thank you for bring me fun and be there when I am upset but now you took what you gave it in just a second.

Chhin 18/12/2010

Thank you SK (Angel)

First of all, I want to thanks to Sk(Angel) to teach me what I would never learnt from other. I will try to balance my heart and my brain so that I would not hurt anyone or get hurt from anyone.

I want to say I love Angel so much eventhough I was not able to walk into Angel life.

I know that my past was not great or you can call it worst but I know that nothing I could change my past. I hope that I could change my future in a better past.

My brain agreed to be Angel's friend but my heart disagreed with that.

I wish you could be my first love and I could be your last but I know it's not gonna happen eventhough I pray to God that I don't believe in every nights.

There's nothing I wouldn't do to make Angel feel my love, maybe I am harsh and hungry for your love that the stupidity come to into my mind when I am with you.

I am sorry to make you feel upset but you don't have to explain why you can't accept me to be in you life because I know that the reason would not change the fact that you don't love me.

I am not crying but my heart is crying very loud. If I am crying, I wish God could bring me a heavy rain so that no one could ever know how hard I am crying.

I don't know what will happen tomorrow and in the future but now I just want Angel to know that I love Angel so much and I know you still don't understand how I feel about you.

Becoming your friend would be so much painful for me because everytime when I look into your eyes I see how happy you are without me.. and I lie and say I'm happy for you.

Isn't it amzing how a person who was once just a stranger, suddenly meant the world to me. By that I meant the stranger was you Angel.

I am not choosing to be a victim but I'm choosing to learn a lesson . Thank you for giving a chance for having a date with you!!! It starts so great like heaven, but it ends so painful...

Becoming your friend is the only choice that I could stay near you! I am happy for that because I could watch the person I love is happy.

Chhin 16/12/2010 1.58 AM